Damn sian..

Today i took a very long time just to do dishes.. 1/2 hour I guess. 10 minutes or less for some people to complete their dinner. But do you know how long I needed to cook. More than an hour to fry fish and more than 8 hours to slow cook the black bean soup. But some people only took about a bowl in total. I feel so sian until I decided to take my own swwet time to clear the dinner table and to wash the yard floor. Yes, I admit that I’m a freak in terms of cleanliness and it makes a reason why I want to write this post.

I hate it -

  1. when I see newspaper on the sofa
  2. that the study room’s messiness is never ending.. It’s so freaking upsetting that I want ot beautify the room but people are just not helping
  3. when people start picking my newly washed clothes without bathing and changing to clean clothes
  4. when people start folding my newly washed clothes without bathing and changing to clean clothes AND mopping the floor clean.
  5. to see urine stain on the toilet bowl
  6. to see files lying everywhere.. it’s always that things taken are not put back to the original place
  7. that it’s my 1/3 home but still can’t do all I want it to be
  8. when I said I want to ReST but I couldn’t
  9. for many other reasons.

With all these, I’m pondering now-

  1. whether is it appropriate to live with other people
  2. Am I a person who can only live on her own or at least with people who have the same standard of home living as myself e.g. my mom

 

I know that I have a lot of frustration inside me. And YES, I’m complaining!!

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